I got there at 10:50 AM and my friend came 10-15 mins later and we went to eat + line up.
The location of the MTVK Secret Show was on 251 West 30th street so only the people that were invited know the location but it got leaked so there were a handful of people that were not invited.
There is about 50 invites + each person can bring a friend = 100 attendees
Then they handed out the strips you put on your hand to the people and this is where it got really chaotic for me because I’m 17 and 18- people need parent signature.
I had a panic attack and got yelled at by my mom for like 15mins but after an hour, she finally came to uptown manhattan and helped me sign the form but it made her cancel her plans + its her birthday ( sorry mommy ~ ily ! - a little random right? Lols sorry )
The MTVK staff were EXTREMELY NICE BYTHEWAY ! they tried to help in every possible way regarding the permission slips + etc problems
ANYWAY !!
Waited outside on line for about 2 hours and finally went in ~
We did coat checks and everything went really smooth. By the time we got in, it was 2:30 – 3:00 ( sorry, not sure of time because we weren’t allowed to have phones/cameras on us. They said that if any footage was to be leaked, they might cancel the whole event so no one risked it ) ( lemme take a minute to explain the room – it is extremely small; they said the capacity for us fans was 100 and I didn’t count the staff but the max was probably 20 – 30 so you can imagine it
Or maybe you can’t, so here -
Us fans all stood from the enterance area to around the edge of the bar– the cameras and the band were set up at the back of the room, that whole area off the edge of the bar. We had to open room up about 2-3 ft from the wall in front of the stairs and im sure you guys know why ^^ THE BOYS !! )
We waited inside for about 10-15 minutes and we (the fans) all made a deal to not push, because we wouldnt want anyone to fall on the boys ~
We were all civilized and the perfect fans – we cheered and waved very hard but no one reached out to pull the boys or threw anything at them. I am very proud of us because we also obeyed the directions of the staff very very well. I was RIGHTTT in front so I saw them REALLY REALLY CLOSE since they were wasn’t much space opened for them to walk.
Then.. TADAH !!! THE BOYS CAME DOWN !!!
The cameraman came down first, then this guy staff, THEN JAEJOONG (HE WAS GIGGLING ! IT WAS SO FLIPPING CUTE ! HE HAD HIS HAND TOUCH COVER HIS MOUTH TO HIDE HIS LAUGH BD – omo it was too cute), THEN CAME JUNSU + YOOCHUN + STAFFFFFFFFFFFFF
I couldn’t and still can’t find the right vocabulary word to describe them – gorgeous ? beautiful ? perfect ? GODS PERHAPS ?!
Sigh^^ ~ they are absolutely breathtaking..
They sat onto their chairs and we quickly filled up the area we left open earlier to let them walk and I was rightttt on the wall with a PERFECT VIEW ! no one was infront of me and i waved around my lightstick + beginning tshirt the whole time. I was also next to practically half the staff that was against the wall so the boys looked over at me a lot ^^.
Rules again; we were instructed before that we’re allowed to shout/scream while the boys are recording the songs and I was expecting at least 1 person to break the rules but the cassies that were there are the perfect fans. We obeyed and it’s the first time I saw the cassie fans behave as I always imagined for us to be ( sorry but the showcase gave me cassiephobia ) if we needed to spazz, a lot of us ( including me 8D ) just gasped quietly and spazzed onto the person next to you ( because we can. LOL. Cassies are truly friendly and you can be hugging and crying on each other even tho you don’t know the person’s name)
ANYWAYS – sorry I keep going off topic but idk when to talk about the rules we were addressed to so I just bring them up randomly because it is sort of important
Yoochun was obviously sick )8
It really broke my heart. Within the first two minute he sat down, he coughed about 6 times. I mean yeah they waved to us the moment they sat down but they quickly started talking amongst themselves and to the staff. The poor boy was coughing and you can tell it’s the kind of coughs with phlegm in your throat.
Did I mention their outfits and seating ? Ahaha sorry girls ~
Jaejoong sat in the middle ( obviously ~ ) Junsu sat to the left and Yoochun sat to the right ( who was the closest one to me ^^ – I didn’t pick Yoochun’s side on purpose but he just happened to sit over there ^^ FATE ! )
Junsu was wearing a black beater and a gray blazer over + plastic looking jeans.. LOL + calve high socks + kicks ( I thought he was wearing boots but I saw sunny@mtvk’s tweets and finally realized they were socks LOL )
Jaejoong was wearing this sleek black-grey longsleeve and gray skinny .. pants lols – looked like jeans but im not sure + calve boots – gorgeous. ( a lot of people said he lost a lot of weight and I thought so too I didn’t expect it to be this drastic ): he looks about 2 sizes smaller now .. hurts so bad )
Yoochun was wearing a yarn looking gray robe/sweater + a very long yarn scarf + dressshirt + tie under + black boots that looked like the dr.marten boots dbsk endorsed before )
First song was Be My Girl Acoustic Version n__________n
You already know its sexy just by hearing the name. And its even better when you hear it ~
Yoochun was obviously sick but he held up really well and sounded perfect. Not nasally at all nor did he go overboard. Junsu was his usual vocal god self. Jaejoong sounded a little deep today but its because he sick but nonetheless; breathtaking vocals. Everyone really lives up to the name as gods, really, they do.
After they finished the song, we had to wait for the PD to cue us to cheer, which was about 10-15 seconds after the song finished which was very awkward + we were all dying to spazz out loud. We cheered like crazyyyy then they did take 2 of BMG AV again. In between the 2 takes, Yoochun coughed again and drank water ):
They finished the second take just as well as they did the first - we cheered blahblahblah
Then Yoochun was asking for something and I swearrrr I heard “drink” + something Korean but then the staff waved down the coordi unni’s that were upstairs to bring tissue. So then they had like 4 min break to add hair spray LOL + get fanned + to get their sweat wiped. ( I don’t blame them tho because I felt like I had a fever myself ~ I was red and hot everywhere and we weren’t in the light )
( Im not sure if it was during this interval but me and the girl next to me both waved to Yoochun – she hand waved and I was using the glowstick and Yoochun looked over here and held our gaze for 1-2 seconds and gave us the eyesmile ! OHMYFFFFFFFGOD ! I SWEAR TO GOD I PASSED OUT FOR LIKE 2 MINS ! BBY BOY IS PRECIOUSSSSSS ! )
Then Yoochun leaned on his mic and it was sooooooo cute because it practically squished his cheeks and I was sooo close that I saw everything. Then he did that exhale-with-mouth-and-make-lips-shake-thing-that-makes-sound-like-the-helicopter LOOL ^^ all the fanservices he gives ~
Then we started to record Empty ( YAYYY !! I was hoping soooooooo hard we wouldnt do Ayy Girl )
The boys continued to sit down to sing instead of dancing but it only makes us appreciate their vocals even more ~ they looked so serene and sweet and when they looked at each other to harmonize, it would seem like they’re singing it to each other ^^ )
During the break of the first + second take of Empty, Yoochun coughed more and this time, someone’s mom went “ God Bless You “ and everyoneeeeeeeee laughed ~
It was so heartwarming seeing the boys giggle and the staff laugh with us instead of having on their pokerface. After that, Yoochun + Jaejoong chatted a little and then the PD cued them to get ready. Then the keyboardist started playing and messed up and said “ Sorry, one more time “ and everyoneee laughed again~
The boys were giggling and it just made us ^^ ( you might be annoyed of how I mention everytime they giggle/laugh but its so important to know they’re happy and that matters most )
Then they finished the take very smoothly as expected ~ Again was a short interval and me and the girl next to me waved to Yoochun again ~
AND HE LOOKED AGAIN !! 8D this time, he held our gaze for 3-4 seconds and then gave us the squinty eye shame-on-you-in-a-playful-way look LOOL !
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I DIED AGAINNNNNNN ! I WAS SO ABOUT TO FALL BACKWARDS AND REST IN PEACE !!
Yoochun wasn’t the only person that looked at me but he was the only one that gave me a reaction so Im only gonna spazz about his here even tho I spazzed about every look at the event. Yoochun is not my bias, I have no bias but the boy is slowly recruiting me into his army of mouses
Im not sure when this was but the boys started talking to us or something or doing aegyo and we all spazzed out so hard. ANDDDDDDDD I TOOK THIS OPPORTUNITY TO SCREAM OUT YUNJAEE !! ( if you follow mtvk on twitter, you’re gonna see sunny tweet this and that fan was me ^^ THANK MEEEEEEE !! ) I couldn’t see his face because the camera was in front of me but the other cassies said he covered his mouth and laughed out loud but Junsu had this awkward laugh LOOOOL like the im-not-ohkay-with-this-kinda-stuff-but-lets-laugh-it-off kind of laugh LOOL SOOOOOOOO CUTEE !! the friend I came with had a YooSu sign the other night at the showcase and she said that during the ment, Junsu saw it and made a o___O face LOOOOL SOO CUTE !
NOW ! its towards the ending and they just had to record the introduction of the songs. Yoochun’s lines were “ Hello we are JYJ and this song is called be my girl / empty. “ But bby boy went back to his usual dork and had to retake this part 6 times LOLL toooooooooooo cutee. Everytime he thought it was going to be ohkay, the PD goes one more time or hanbondoh and we enjoyed every single awkward + cute take ^^ By the fifth take, we+he thought it was going to be ohkay but PDnim said onemore and we allllll laughed and Yoochun his 160- degree-lay-back-while-sitting-on-a-stool ( you get it right ? like he was leaning back and his legs lifted up ) which was totallyyyyyyyyyyyyyy cute. I forgot while take it was, but Jaejoong messed up on one of them – I don’t know why but after Yoochun would finish saying the lines, Jaejoong would lean towards his mic and hold it as if he has something to say, but he never says anything. Then this one time, he was holding his mic and he laughed which = NG 8D
Again, im not sure which take it was but Yoochun was delivering his lines and suddenly cracked up – we of course all laughed too and then he said its cause this girl was grinning and then JUNGRISH STRIKED ! Junsu went “ big smile “ with his hands doing that pulling a smile over mouth thing AHAHAH SOOOO CUTE !! I asked the girl after we got out what happened ( she has a yoochun fansign btw ), and it was that Yoochun just looked over to her and she couldn’t help smiling and then yoochun started laughing , and she was like she said sorry ^^ ahhh soo cute
Then after they finally finished recording the intros, they started packing up and we knew it was gonna end }8
The whole recording went by really fast and smooth but its personally too smooth ~
I’d ratherd they have more NGs and takes for the songs so we could spend more time together ^^
They got up and we cleared an isle by the wall for them to walk through and then outta nowhere, Yoochun switched his water bottle that was in his right hand into his left and gave girls handshakes ^^
I IMMEDIATELY prepared my hand
And guess what .. n___________n
HE SHOOK ITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
AND ITS NOT THOSE TOUCH AND LET GO HANDSHAKES ! HE HELD MY HAND FOR SOOOOOOOO LONG ! LIKE FOR ABOUT 4-5 SECONDS !
AND THEN JAEJOONG + JUNSU FOLLOWED HIM TOO !!
THEY SHOOK HANDS AND I GOT JAEJOONG’S HAND FOR 2 SECONDS + JUNSU’S HAND FOR 3 SECONDS !!
OH MY FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF GODDDD !!!!!
I teared up right after ~
BEST MOMENT OF MY LIFE ! 15 HOURS OF WAITING AT THE SHOWCASE YESTERDAY PAID OFF TODAY !
For the next hour, I still couldn’t digest what happened. Everything felt so unreal.. it didn’t feel like they’re really in NY and I didn’t really go their their showcase+mtvk event and neither did I see them. It went from youtube + picture only way I ever saw them to 2 yards away from me. It finally hit me on the train when be my girl came on my ipod and I started crying..
This has been the best day of my life and im never going to forget this day. This is my first and last fandom. But this is THE best fandom out there and I don’t care whos going to come and challenge me on this ( maybe except for MJ but he never had a fanclub like this )
I love you Kim Junsu. I love you Kim Jaejoong. I love you Park Yoochun. I love you fellow cassies that I met over the past 3 days; you guys feel like childhood friends to me.
This is a 2700+ fanaccount
I hope you guys like it ! ~
The official footage is going to come tomorrow on mtvk so be sure to go see the awesome acoustic Be My Girl and Empty that was sang calmly ~
I know I didn’t mention Jaejoong or Junsu much and im sorry but they didn’t do much ~
But I did count how many times they looked at me ( and im not crazy because we had eyecontact ) ^^
Junsu = 9 times MWUAHAHAH I LOVE YOU JUNSU ! SO VERY FFFFING MUCH ! I was sad because he didn’t smile or give any expression when he looked at me but I knew he saw me and that’s good enough. AND IT WAS 9 TIMES TOO 8D
Jaejoong = 3 times – his were hard to tell because he would like from the staff on my right over to the fans and his hair covered his left eye. He didn’t hold my gaze either but I love you oh so very much to looking at me bby ^^
Yoochun = 2-3 times – even tho he looked at me the least, he gave me the most feedback and I ffffing love him so ffffing much for that. The boy OOOOOOOOZES with charm even if hes sick.
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